It is instantly clear to me at 7AM this Tuesday morning that this website is going to suffer greatly at the hands of this new full time job. Just 8 hours after I completed my first day I realize that I got nothing done tonight… and I didn’t even take a picture. The idea is that I go out straight from work, take photos until like 3, go home, edit photos, upload photos, update site and be asleep by 7 am. It is now 7am and while I have edited all the photos I took Saturday night, I did not yet get them online, and I did not shoot anything. I didn’t have my camera on me when I got off work. I will tomorrow, but since I got nothing done tonight, why on Earth do I think I am going to be able to get anything done from 4-7 tomorrow. That is three hours to get two galleries up from Saturday, edit all the photos I take tonight, get them online and update again. Yikes. I need to streamline my work…. And I need an intern. That is no joke. If you want to be my intern, and know Facebook really well, basic HTML and are willing to work for college credit and drink tickets, let me know. Also, you can do almost all your work from home except some occasional night club stuff and maybe a few runs to the store. Being 21+ or having a reliable fake would be a bonus. Let me know soon, I hit up Craigslist next week.
Okay, off to bed as soon as I put watermarks on the Saturday skater party pictures so they will be ready for upload first thing tomorrow when I get back from party photoing.
Tuesday night update: I did shoot some pretty fun photos tonight, but I got into some shit instead of coming home to do work, so once again it is nearly 7AM and I have nothing to show for it (although I will have edited the photos of tonight before I go to sleep). I also paid a ticket. And I had a lot of fun, and I have not done that for a bit. Let’s see what happens tomorrow…
Have some Lulz courtesy of Defame: Orlando’s comment section and 15 more minutes of not going to sleep.
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I just wanted to say Happy Mother’s Day to all my friends out there who keep having babies. It seems like there are more and more of you every year. Maybe I should stop being old….
Anyway, I hope that all your kids are one day as thoughtful as I am and get your mothers wonderful gifts like what I got my mom this year:
Sweet merciful lord. I woke up yesterday around noon after a few hours of sleep because I forgot to pick up my sleeping pills and had to take a bunch of tylenol PM instead. Then I did some shit and cleaned my apartment and updated this site and blah blah blah. Then I went to the Burning Angel party at Trash. I will just have to say that that was completely fucking insane. I am going to do a two part series, part one up tomorrow, and the really fucked up photos on Monday. I also have a girl/girl gallery that will be up as well. Anyway, the point was I was completely drained from the lack of sleep and my balls hurt from the naked girls and groping. So what did I do? I took a cab to Radio City Music Hall and stood in the rain until 9:30 AM waiting for tickets to see the NFL Draft. At 9:30 they opened the door and basically everyone started running full sprint at the door. Like 3000 people. It was insane, people got trampled etc. 2 hours later after being crushed by people I had a wristband. Then several hours of waiting in another line I got inside. From the time I left Trash to the time I got inside it had been 11 hours. Then I watched the draft until 10PM. It is now 10 o’clock, roughly 34 hours after I woke up. I want to die. GO DOLPHINS!
Okay, so I am not really stuck. I just haven’t left yet. You see I am planning on driving back to New York and honestly the last thing I want to do is drive for 5 hours. Not that I want to be on a bus for that long, but at least then I could watch Human Giant episodes on my ipod. I also found a few reasons to stay an extra day.
Entourage Season 4 On Demand. My parents have this amazing entertainment system thing they just got and it has HBO on demand and I can watch it on a TV the size of my refrigerator. I just rewatched Entourage season 3 last week and was going to try to download season 4, yet here it is at my finger tips.
Washington Capitals hockey. I am going to try to watch game 7 of their play off series against the Flyers with some locals. Root root root for the home team. I don’t follow hockey during the regular season, but I fucking love hockey, especially when my team has one of the best players of all time playing in his first ever playoff series. Go Alex! (Wait till you see the Miami Dolphins/ Alex Ovechkin Onion video that will be up in a few days.)
I came up with a photo project that is documenting my nascent sexuality from 1980-1999 using Polaroid film to document locations in my neighborhood growing up that make me extremely nostalgic for a time before I started getting blow jobs in night club bathrooms from total strangers who are fans of my site.
Anyway, I will be back soon, I just wanted you to know a few of the amazing thing that happened to me whist I have been in Virginia.
A female cardinal flew into my parents house. That is the state bird of VA. I was awoken to the sounds of my mother screaming and I had to run down and save her from it. She was flipping out and I barely had time to get pants on. I just opened a door and waved a towel at it.
I saw a man in DC wearing a leather jacket with plaid shorts. Seriously dude, what the fuck?
I saw a man shaving whilst driving. He had his whole face covered with shaving cream and he was shaving and then wiping the razor on a towel. Seriously, that is not a joke. My friend Wistar, who has a blog as well, wrote about both me, the wedding we were at, and the shaving guy. So read that shit right now.
Lastly, I leave you with this photo I took of my dad who I am visiting at the moment… click it to see a video of pretty much exactly what my experience in VA is like hanging out with my dad and his friends.
Whilst I did not accomplish my goal of getting the photos from last weeks Trash photobooth up today I did accomplish everything else on my list, which I have to say is a great success. After barely moving for three days, I stayed up for 30 straight hours and was extremely productive. I even had time to see a movie involving that guy from Bill And Ted and that guy from the Crying Game doing something involving lots of guns. I have to admit I was pretty tired when I saw it and I don’t actually remember what it was called… but there were a lot of racial slurs.
Anyway, I am in a much better mood now, but extremely tired, which means I am not going to go out AGAIN. This is becoming a habit, but on a positive note it is forcing me to come up with other things to blog about and I have received three emails praising my prose today, so that is appreciated… fuck I wish I didn’t have to spell check the word appreciate every single time I write it. I got 11 rolls of film developed today. They are all top secret, but only one roll did not come out and that was the roll that got exposed when my camera broke.
SPEAKING OF CAMERAS: IF ANYONE HAS A YASHICA T4, T4- SUPRA OR T5 THAT I CAN BORROW UNTIL I GET A NEW ONE PLEASE LET ME KNOW!! THANKS!
Sorry about that, I just need to stop taking all my photos with this:
Anyway, it is my only goal tomorrow to get the photobooth images up;Â So until tomorrow…. Keep those links coming and watch out for snakes!
WARNING: This post is long winded, personal, and of no interest to anyone who is not obsessed with me. Please skip to the video at the end unless you really enjoy me ranting about my life. That being said, the video at the end is amazing. Now back to your regularly scheduled post:
Seriously, there is nothing really much to say about this video. I am pretty speechless… or maybe not:
I will say that I see videos on the internet all the time that really inspire me to waste huge amount of my time doing something ultimately meaningless, but amazing none the less. It sort of makes me think that I lack creativity. I wish I could me more inspired more often. Every since I got back from Texas, and especially since I got back from Florida I have been increasingly less motivated. I didn’t get out of bed all day yesterday. I think it is partly due to the fact that I had so much fun partying for a living that it is really horrifying to come back to no job and tons of shit to do and instead dealing with it I just sit in my house. Not that this is really any of your business, but I am always pretty open on this site. I recently went of anti-depressants for the first time in over a decade. Now, I don’t think I am any more depressed than I have been, but I have been very unmotivated and tired and stressed out. I am not sure if I should go back on them or not. Who knows? I have a lot of ideas in mind for this site, and things I want to accomplish in my life and none of them are getting done. I think I am just really stressed about not having a job for so long and finally having to get one. I know I keep saying that, but it is very hard to find a job that will allow me to keep doing my site and keep going out of town to shoot parties I actually get paid real money for. I want to make a living at this, and I have been for the past 6 months, but I have been steadily losing money and I am about to go into my savings account to pay for broken cameras and then I will be pretty much cashed out assuming I don’t get a job at Cochella or some big event soon.
Now I know I have been ranting and complaining about shit which I hate to do on this site. People don’t like to read it, and it turns them off to my site. It also makes me feel like this site is nothing more than a live journal or something, but it is reasonably therapeutic. I saw that video, and I keep thinking about motivation. Those kids had the motivation and desire to make the below amazing video despite what a complete and total waste of time it was. I had motivation when I managed the Gaskets, and I had motivation to do this site, but sometimes I just feel like I am just shitting out posts just so I can say I did my work for today. I think I should be working on a few great posts and have a separate page for the photos. Or something. I decided I wanted to do many posts a day because I thought that it would be easier than doing three big posts a week, and it is… but the problem is when I do a lot of posts, the really good ones are gone in a few days… and people don’t comment on posts and there is no discussion. I need to do something about that somehow…
Anyway, my last mention in this rant was about the Wire. I finished the series last night. It may be one of my favorite shows of all time. The last season was all about journalism, and it just made me really wish I shot photos for a newspaper. I wish I did documentary work. I got in photography to document the DC punk scene. I became a band photographer from that. I tried to document the drug culture I was around in high school because I loved photographers like Larry Clark and I was around this stuff, but photographing people doing extacy and smoking weed is not quite as visual as people shooting meth. So I just stuck to the band stuff until I got bored with that and just started shooting portraits of my friends… and of course naked people for sport. I never really considered myself an artist, and I never wanted to be. I don’t want to say anything about my work, I just wanted to capture what is around me. I wanted to shoot my friends because that’s what I was around. I shoot parties, cause I go to parties. But now I think, maybe I am just going to parties to take photos because I have this site. I am okay with that, I still have a lot of fun, and my work has gotten much better… but what now? I guess the point is I really regret not doing real documentary work. I mean, I can view this site as an account of down town NYC in the mid 2000’s, but I just wish I was out there telling a story and showing people something they can’t see on 10 different websites. I need to take inspiration from people like VBS and the Magnum photographers that I dreamed of being. Even when I just shot band I always dreamed of winning a Pulitzer, not shooting the cover of Rolling Stone. I just feel I have wasted a lot of time doing bullshit photography and I am not sure what I can do about it at this point. I guess I am just going to have to find some way to tell some story some how and get inspired by something.
And now that I wrote it all down maybe I will actually do it. These guys below did.
I am having a fucking shitty day. I am going to try to get up one set of photos from Miami today and hopefully the rest tomorrow and Thursday. I have them all thumbed and watermarked and ready to go. I should never have let them sit around for this long, but right at the end of the trip some shit happened that sort of left a bad taste in my mouth. I don’t really want to talk about it, but I think it is probably resolved. Then today I have just had a horrible day, again for reasons I don’t want to talk about. I want to just go sleep my life away, but I got up and was slightly productive. My room is in shambles as I still have not unpacked from SXSW or WMC. I have like 10000000 things to do and I can’t seem to be bothered to do any of them. I never want to go out and shoot any more and I am just depressed I guess. I am sure I will be fine, I just gotta get past this bump. Today has just been extraordinarily shitty. I just need to take some deep breaths or something. Grrr…
And just for content sake this might be the most strangely impressive thing I have seen myspace post on their front page. Kill me now.
So I have been here for 2 days and slept less than 5 hours total. I am sleeping on the floor for the next few days, not psyched about that. It is only like 1 AM right now am I am going to try to sleep for a few hours in a bed before people come kick me onto the floor. The hotel has house music blasting in the lobby though so any sleep will be tough. Tomorrow I will party forever. I have pretty much just shot people holding Vitamin Energy which is the energy drink made by the Vitamin Water folks. I am not really a big energy drink fan, but they are better than others. I am pretty much obsessed with Vitamin Water though. Tomorrow will be more interesting I think.
I go to Miami every year to watch football, but I never go to South Beach or anything. It is pretty interesting.  I have never seen so many hot girls that I am so uninterested in talking to. I have zero to say to these girls. So many fake boobs and blonde hair and tans. It is pretty fun looking at them… and then walking away. Everyone is so awful here. Shirtless muscle bound dudes with blow outs abound. So weird. So gross. Luckily everyone I have been hanging with are good people and I have a bunch of fun.
I had another piece of camera equipment quit on me. This time my lens some how got jammed for no reason. I had to buy a lens and drop almost $200 on a lens that is worse that the lens I have now.
I will try to get some photos up soon. Here a completely random shot from the Club Monaco/Vitamin Energy event I shot today.
My website is pissing me off. I can’t upload stuff proper. I have like 3 galleries to go up today but they didn’t. I will just put an ass load of shit up tomorrow.
I spent the last 2 hours watching episode’s of Tom Green’s new internet/tv show. I think you should spend from now until whenever I update again watching it.
